Oneness has ripen within me like a grape on a vine. The past 39 days have opened my heart to a connection with others I had hoped for yet not quite let myself experience. I moved so much as a kid that I really didn't know how to connect to people, certainly not on an intimate level. I spent so much time trying to figure out what the rules of behavior were in any given school or neighborhood that I didn't have a thought about being myself.
As Oneness has blossomed in my relationships, I see that I have always been connected at that deep level, regardless of how long I've known someone. The rules of behavior don't matter. What matters is the love that binds us. My desire to be connected is a call for love. That's really all that matters.
My presence releases the fragrance of basil and vanilla, two of my favorite things. As I think of this, I remember sitting on my Dad's back patio and smelling basil everywhere. I asked if this was from his kitchen garden and he said, no, look down. The basil had spread and now grew between the stones in his patio. He said he has to mow the patio to keep the leaves down but it makes an amazing smell when he does it so he doesn't mind. That's such a wonderful memory and I'm sure it contributes to my love of the herb.
The fruits of my journey so far are mostly internal fruits. I have a confidence in myself and my abilities that has been lacking for a while. I have dropped my need for other people to like or approve of what I'm doing. That in itself is a very powerful thing. I appreciate my body and my talents daily. I have been moving forward toward my goal of speaking professionally again and have started to make connections in that realm as well.
I celebrate my journey each day as I continue my practices of reading and visualizing. I make sure that I connect with a few friends every day and that is certainly a celebration. As I do this, I feel that a new aspect of my journey is starting. I am connecting with a new group of people and am trusting that the right people are coming into my awareness and my life. While I do have a goal for myself, I am also open to the movements of the Universe and the messages I am receiving.
As I consider the quotation from Song of Songs (2:13), I feel I am being called to "arise and come" by potential students. One of my teaching gifts is to take complicated or technical ideas and make them understandable by the general public. I am moving quickly forward in the spiritual realm and maybe this will be one of my presentation topics - this new thought and how it works in people's daily lives. It isn't really "new" thought, after all. Just new to this generation. Maybe I will end up being some kind of guide as we move forward on our journey.
Pam
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