I have a headache. Not a bad one, just a bothersome one. Also, I'm feeling kind of down. Ok, the sun isn't shining here in Las Vegas. I know that's not it, though.
The topic for today is FAITH and seeing through the eyes of the Beloved.
Went to service today in particular (made sure I was there) because I was asked to read the story "The White Envelope." You can easily to a Google search and find it. It is a touching story of generosity and a lovely tradition one family has. As I read the story today (for about the 8th time), I connected to it on a level I hadn't before and started to tear up. By the time I was reading the part about the tradition being passed on (you need to read the story) I was crying and had trouble even reading the words. I finished the story and took my seat.
I turned to a friend and asked, "Why am I crying? It isn't even my story!" She replied, "Spirit touched your heart. It was beautiful."
Several people came up to me and thanked me for sharing MY story. On man even said "I'm sure Mike is looking down on you today." Mike is the man in the story. They thought I was telling my own experience!
On the one hand, COOL. I was effective in sharing the heart of the story. I touched people to a level of tears (friends shared that the kleenex boxes were being passed near her). That's the connection, the love, the sharing that I long for.
On the other hand (and this could just be me afraid to accept a success), did I deceive them? I didn't read the title or state that the author is unknown. I didn't give any lead-in at all. Did I accidentally represent this as my personal experience by just jumping into the story?
It was beautiful. The story is lovely and the tradition is one that can easily be duplicated in families for years. If I touched people's hearts, then good. Maybe those hearts needed to be touched today. Maybe today I was a vessel for spirit and I should just go with that. I saw through the eyes of the Beloved and sent my love and appreciation out to the group. My willingness to connect created the opening for love to flow.
I will leave it at that. Now, headache, be gone. No need for you here. Love is flowing.
Wishing you love and prosperity,
Pam
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Friday, December 18, 2009
Threat to Our Thinking
I had an experience with a woman yesterday that has me wondering, why do people react like that?
I asked if she was planning to attend a social function with a group a friends we had in common when she all but demanded I sit down to hear why she would not. I agreed with some reservations that it turns out were justified. She spent the next ten minutes verbally attacking and demeaning a very accomplished person in this group and then turned her attack to me.
In the conversation, I attempted to be respectful and curious about her experiences. I suggested there may be other ways of looking at the situation she was describing. She had heard something said by this woman that was violently contrary to her own thinking. Instead of considering it as an alternative point of view, this woman attacked it as heresy then attacked the messenger and anyone associated with the messenger.
I am beginning to have an idea of what was going on during the Crusades.
This idea that came to her was contrary to her own understanding of "the way things work." It was so contrary that it put her in a state of survival and protection. There was no possibility, in her mind, that there could be any other way of thinking. The topic was how doing emotional and spiritual clean-up can result in our bodies healing themselves and the possibility of getting off certain medications. This suggestions was followed by "now don't go home and go off your meds cold turkey. Work with your doctor."
This thought was so scary that my friend heard the other woman say "go off your meds." She never heard the "work with your doctor." Her mindset is that her brain works in a certain way and that's just how it is. Now, if that is your belief than do not hear me say you are wrong. There a millions of people who will support your view with medical and scientific reports and charts and graphs. Got it. I don't doubt any of that.
But what if there is ANOTHER way to look at it? What if we COULD heal our bodies? What if we COULD shift our body chemistry?
Here's my own story about that. About five or six years ago, I went to my eye doctor who said I had cataracts growing in my eyes. At 40 I was dismayed since I saw this as an "old person's" problem. He explained that because of the high correction factor in my eyes, it sometimes happens sooner. Not a problem, he said. I had gone to him to find out if I was eligible for laser surgery on my eyes (I am not) so this cataract thing was actually good news. When the cataracts were "ready," he could replace my eyes' lenses and I would be as good as if I had had laser surgery. Ok, fine.
Years go on, different doctors agree that I have cataracts. No, they aren't ready to operate on yet. See you next year.
Then I began doing some very deep emotional and spiritual work on myself. I began shifting my thinking, or rather deepening my belief of my own influence over my physical experience of the world. You have been reading about the Oneness Project, the Peacemakers class, and the Vision seminars. I started this journey many, many years ago so it has been wonderous to have the depth of growth I have experienced. In August, I went to a new eye doctor. During my exam he said everything looked good, no glaucoma, no cataracts, I'll see you next year... Wait. What? Back up there, cowboy. No cataracts? He looked again. Well, maybe a tiny one on this one eye but no. Who told you you have cataracts? Three different doctors. Well, he said, they don't just heal themselves. There are no cataracts here.
Really? They don't just heal themselves, eh?
Well, mine did.
Did my willingness to look deeply into my life and my assumptions about life create conditions in my body to get rid of something that was impeding my vision? If you have a metaphysical view of things, if you believe that I can heal my life (as Louise Hay teaches), then yes. I am grateful to my eyes for figuring out how to heal the lenses they see through. I have no explanation. AND I am grateful. I like the story of having no cataracts better than having them. I don't really need them for my experience of life right now, so it's fine that they have healed. I like seeing clearly.
The Spiritual Peacemakers book calls it's readers to help other awaken from their deep sleep. Maybe helping open the POSSIBILITY of another way of seeing our physical bodies, of our power over our experience is the challenge of this process for me. I wonder if I will be able to help awaken my friend to even the CHANCE that there would be another way of looking at this. I am open.
Pam
I asked if she was planning to attend a social function with a group a friends we had in common when she all but demanded I sit down to hear why she would not. I agreed with some reservations that it turns out were justified. She spent the next ten minutes verbally attacking and demeaning a very accomplished person in this group and then turned her attack to me.
In the conversation, I attempted to be respectful and curious about her experiences. I suggested there may be other ways of looking at the situation she was describing. She had heard something said by this woman that was violently contrary to her own thinking. Instead of considering it as an alternative point of view, this woman attacked it as heresy then attacked the messenger and anyone associated with the messenger.
I am beginning to have an idea of what was going on during the Crusades.
This idea that came to her was contrary to her own understanding of "the way things work." It was so contrary that it put her in a state of survival and protection. There was no possibility, in her mind, that there could be any other way of thinking. The topic was how doing emotional and spiritual clean-up can result in our bodies healing themselves and the possibility of getting off certain medications. This suggestions was followed by "now don't go home and go off your meds cold turkey. Work with your doctor."
This thought was so scary that my friend heard the other woman say "go off your meds." She never heard the "work with your doctor." Her mindset is that her brain works in a certain way and that's just how it is. Now, if that is your belief than do not hear me say you are wrong. There a millions of people who will support your view with medical and scientific reports and charts and graphs. Got it. I don't doubt any of that.
But what if there is ANOTHER way to look at it? What if we COULD heal our bodies? What if we COULD shift our body chemistry?
Here's my own story about that. About five or six years ago, I went to my eye doctor who said I had cataracts growing in my eyes. At 40 I was dismayed since I saw this as an "old person's" problem. He explained that because of the high correction factor in my eyes, it sometimes happens sooner. Not a problem, he said. I had gone to him to find out if I was eligible for laser surgery on my eyes (I am not) so this cataract thing was actually good news. When the cataracts were "ready," he could replace my eyes' lenses and I would be as good as if I had had laser surgery. Ok, fine.
Years go on, different doctors agree that I have cataracts. No, they aren't ready to operate on yet. See you next year.
Then I began doing some very deep emotional and spiritual work on myself. I began shifting my thinking, or rather deepening my belief of my own influence over my physical experience of the world. You have been reading about the Oneness Project, the Peacemakers class, and the Vision seminars. I started this journey many, many years ago so it has been wonderous to have the depth of growth I have experienced. In August, I went to a new eye doctor. During my exam he said everything looked good, no glaucoma, no cataracts, I'll see you next year... Wait. What? Back up there, cowboy. No cataracts? He looked again. Well, maybe a tiny one on this one eye but no. Who told you you have cataracts? Three different doctors. Well, he said, they don't just heal themselves. There are no cataracts here.
Really? They don't just heal themselves, eh?
Well, mine did.
Did my willingness to look deeply into my life and my assumptions about life create conditions in my body to get rid of something that was impeding my vision? If you have a metaphysical view of things, if you believe that I can heal my life (as Louise Hay teaches), then yes. I am grateful to my eyes for figuring out how to heal the lenses they see through. I have no explanation. AND I am grateful. I like the story of having no cataracts better than having them. I don't really need them for my experience of life right now, so it's fine that they have healed. I like seeing clearly.
The Spiritual Peacemakers book calls it's readers to help other awaken from their deep sleep. Maybe helping open the POSSIBILITY of another way of seeing our physical bodies, of our power over our experience is the challenge of this process for me. I wonder if I will be able to help awaken my friend to even the CHANCE that there would be another way of looking at this. I am open.
Pam
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Back to Napoleon
Now that the Oneness experiment is over for now, I turn back to Think and Grow Rich, the well-known guide by Napoleon Hill. While this book is simple on it's surface, I am beginning to understand why fans read and re-read this thin volume.
I am on chapter 3: Faith. The subtitle speaks to visualizing and believing as the second step to riches. Hill describes the three main positive emotions: faith, love, and sex. By modern psychology, these are not emotions at all (joy, excitement, fear, anger, sadness). Sex is an emotion? I don't get that at all. Maybe he's referring to "desire." That would fit her better.
With that aside, let's look at what Hill was really saying in this chapter (or at least the part I've read so far). Please feel free to add your own thoughts here so we can learn together.
What I really got was that if I get emotional about the great goal that I have, then it is more likely to happen. This emotional connection is what sends a message to the Universe that I really want what I'm claiming/visualizing. Really, really. Pretty please? And the Universe says, well, ok, since you really really want it. Sure. Nothing new here...but wait, Hill wrote it before so many others who are common Masters now.
This is the theory behind experiential seminars like Lifespring, PSI, Vision. Get emotional as you do some exercise that has you ask what you want, that has you face death, that has you be courageous in the face of your biggest fears. The emotional piece makes whatever I'm learning really stick. I trust men because I screamed it all the way across a high ropes event. "I choose this stretch" is powerful because I chose to get in front of a group and be Donna Summer doing "Love to Love You, Baby" despite my terror. These concepts STUCK, and I mean good.
So it makes so much sense to get excited, joyful, in love with my big goal. The more I visualize it and feel the feelings that I imagine I will feel when I have it first of all is really fun. It feels good. Second of all, activates the whole law of attraction.
Now we are back around to the Oneness experiment and The Secret. It's all interconnected. No accident all these concepts are coming together for me just now. How about you? Are you on a similar path?
Sending love, joy, and prosperity,
Pam
I am on chapter 3: Faith. The subtitle speaks to visualizing and believing as the second step to riches. Hill describes the three main positive emotions: faith, love, and sex. By modern psychology, these are not emotions at all (joy, excitement, fear, anger, sadness). Sex is an emotion? I don't get that at all. Maybe he's referring to "desire." That would fit her better.
With that aside, let's look at what Hill was really saying in this chapter (or at least the part I've read so far). Please feel free to add your own thoughts here so we can learn together.
What I really got was that if I get emotional about the great goal that I have, then it is more likely to happen. This emotional connection is what sends a message to the Universe that I really want what I'm claiming/visualizing. Really, really. Pretty please? And the Universe says, well, ok, since you really really want it. Sure. Nothing new here...but wait, Hill wrote it before so many others who are common Masters now.
This is the theory behind experiential seminars like Lifespring, PSI, Vision. Get emotional as you do some exercise that has you ask what you want, that has you face death, that has you be courageous in the face of your biggest fears. The emotional piece makes whatever I'm learning really stick. I trust men because I screamed it all the way across a high ropes event. "I choose this stretch" is powerful because I chose to get in front of a group and be Donna Summer doing "Love to Love You, Baby" despite my terror. These concepts STUCK, and I mean good.
So it makes so much sense to get excited, joyful, in love with my big goal. The more I visualize it and feel the feelings that I imagine I will feel when I have it first of all is really fun. It feels good. Second of all, activates the whole law of attraction.
Now we are back around to the Oneness experiment and The Secret. It's all interconnected. No accident all these concepts are coming together for me just now. How about you? Are you on a similar path?
Sending love, joy, and prosperity,
Pam
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
The Journey of Oneness
Oneness has ripen within me like a grape on a vine. The past 39 days have opened my heart to a connection with others I had hoped for yet not quite let myself experience. I moved so much as a kid that I really didn't know how to connect to people, certainly not on an intimate level. I spent so much time trying to figure out what the rules of behavior were in any given school or neighborhood that I didn't have a thought about being myself.
As Oneness has blossomed in my relationships, I see that I have always been connected at that deep level, regardless of how long I've known someone. The rules of behavior don't matter. What matters is the love that binds us. My desire to be connected is a call for love. That's really all that matters.
My presence releases the fragrance of basil and vanilla, two of my favorite things. As I think of this, I remember sitting on my Dad's back patio and smelling basil everywhere. I asked if this was from his kitchen garden and he said, no, look down. The basil had spread and now grew between the stones in his patio. He said he has to mow the patio to keep the leaves down but it makes an amazing smell when he does it so he doesn't mind. That's such a wonderful memory and I'm sure it contributes to my love of the herb.
The fruits of my journey so far are mostly internal fruits. I have a confidence in myself and my abilities that has been lacking for a while. I have dropped my need for other people to like or approve of what I'm doing. That in itself is a very powerful thing. I appreciate my body and my talents daily. I have been moving forward toward my goal of speaking professionally again and have started to make connections in that realm as well.
I celebrate my journey each day as I continue my practices of reading and visualizing. I make sure that I connect with a few friends every day and that is certainly a celebration. As I do this, I feel that a new aspect of my journey is starting. I am connecting with a new group of people and am trusting that the right people are coming into my awareness and my life. While I do have a goal for myself, I am also open to the movements of the Universe and the messages I am receiving.
As I consider the quotation from Song of Songs (2:13), I feel I am being called to "arise and come" by potential students. One of my teaching gifts is to take complicated or technical ideas and make them understandable by the general public. I am moving quickly forward in the spiritual realm and maybe this will be one of my presentation topics - this new thought and how it works in people's daily lives. It isn't really "new" thought, after all. Just new to this generation. Maybe I will end up being some kind of guide as we move forward on our journey.
Pam
As Oneness has blossomed in my relationships, I see that I have always been connected at that deep level, regardless of how long I've known someone. The rules of behavior don't matter. What matters is the love that binds us. My desire to be connected is a call for love. That's really all that matters.
My presence releases the fragrance of basil and vanilla, two of my favorite things. As I think of this, I remember sitting on my Dad's back patio and smelling basil everywhere. I asked if this was from his kitchen garden and he said, no, look down. The basil had spread and now grew between the stones in his patio. He said he has to mow the patio to keep the leaves down but it makes an amazing smell when he does it so he doesn't mind. That's such a wonderful memory and I'm sure it contributes to my love of the herb.
The fruits of my journey so far are mostly internal fruits. I have a confidence in myself and my abilities that has been lacking for a while. I have dropped my need for other people to like or approve of what I'm doing. That in itself is a very powerful thing. I appreciate my body and my talents daily. I have been moving forward toward my goal of speaking professionally again and have started to make connections in that realm as well.
I celebrate my journey each day as I continue my practices of reading and visualizing. I make sure that I connect with a few friends every day and that is certainly a celebration. As I do this, I feel that a new aspect of my journey is starting. I am connecting with a new group of people and am trusting that the right people are coming into my awareness and my life. While I do have a goal for myself, I am also open to the movements of the Universe and the messages I am receiving.
As I consider the quotation from Song of Songs (2:13), I feel I am being called to "arise and come" by potential students. One of my teaching gifts is to take complicated or technical ideas and make them understandable by the general public. I am moving quickly forward in the spiritual realm and maybe this will be one of my presentation topics - this new thought and how it works in people's daily lives. It isn't really "new" thought, after all. Just new to this generation. Maybe I will end up being some kind of guide as we move forward on our journey.
Pam
Monday, December 14, 2009
Oneness Experiment-Last few days
I'm definitely doing this experiment again in January. The alchemy it has created in my life is powerful. Very. Near instantaneous sometimes.
Case in point. Yesterday, I found myself in that sweet moment before you actually wake up and found a thought going through my head. The general gist was "lead and I will follow," a reaching out to God. Two second later (no kidding) my alarm went off to get up for church. No kidding. Ok, I'm off to church. Now, for some people this would be a normal Sunday event. It's been a while since I've actually been at services. A couple of months actually. Weekends are often work times for me and I don't always get there. The message was clear: go to church.
Ok. I love the snooze. Anyone else? After this fun answer to prayer, I lingered in the warm quilt for another moment or two, thinking about my day ahead. "I could use a little help with my income, if you don't mind," I found myself thinking. Not ten minutes later (again, no kidding) I get a call from my caroling "booker," Bud. "Debbie is sick today. Can you take her gig?" I explained that I already had a gig that afternoon but the schedules were ok that I could do both if that was ok with him. No problem. Thank you, Universe!
Ok. That's two.
Today I was working on my Oneness journal, diligently answering the questions at the end of the day's reading. The last question was to finish the statement "The intimacy of Oneness I long for is..." and I wrote "...a confident, loving connection with others. I long for the reassurance that I make a difference and am of value to others. I know I have inherent value on the planet. The next level is to constantly be in the question, "How can I contribute here?" About 10 minutes after I wrote that I got a call from a friend. Again, no kidding, who said, "I just want you to know that you make a difference." No kidding. I read him what I wrote and he just laughed. "Cool," he said.
I'm getting my hair cut and colored on Friday. I have no idea where the money is coming from for this. Yet I know without a shadow of a doubt that I will have the money. I've made a commitment to be there and can see myself in the chair feeling GREAT about the way I look with my new "do." It will happen. I don't have to know how. The "how" is none of my business, as Edwene Gaines says.
Thank you, Spirit, for always loving me and taking care of me. I am willing to accept the good that is waiting for me. My arms are open!!
Pam
Case in point. Yesterday, I found myself in that sweet moment before you actually wake up and found a thought going through my head. The general gist was "lead and I will follow," a reaching out to God. Two second later (no kidding) my alarm went off to get up for church. No kidding. Ok, I'm off to church. Now, for some people this would be a normal Sunday event. It's been a while since I've actually been at services. A couple of months actually. Weekends are often work times for me and I don't always get there. The message was clear: go to church.
Ok. I love the snooze. Anyone else? After this fun answer to prayer, I lingered in the warm quilt for another moment or two, thinking about my day ahead. "I could use a little help with my income, if you don't mind," I found myself thinking. Not ten minutes later (again, no kidding) I get a call from my caroling "booker," Bud. "Debbie is sick today. Can you take her gig?" I explained that I already had a gig that afternoon but the schedules were ok that I could do both if that was ok with him. No problem. Thank you, Universe!
Ok. That's two.
Today I was working on my Oneness journal, diligently answering the questions at the end of the day's reading. The last question was to finish the statement "The intimacy of Oneness I long for is..." and I wrote "...a confident, loving connection with others. I long for the reassurance that I make a difference and am of value to others. I know I have inherent value on the planet. The next level is to constantly be in the question, "How can I contribute here?" About 10 minutes after I wrote that I got a call from a friend. Again, no kidding, who said, "I just want you to know that you make a difference." No kidding. I read him what I wrote and he just laughed. "Cool," he said.
I'm getting my hair cut and colored on Friday. I have no idea where the money is coming from for this. Yet I know without a shadow of a doubt that I will have the money. I've made a commitment to be there and can see myself in the chair feeling GREAT about the way I look with my new "do." It will happen. I don't have to know how. The "how" is none of my business, as Edwene Gaines says.
Thank you, Spirit, for always loving me and taking care of me. I am willing to accept the good that is waiting for me. My arms are open!!
Pam
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Oneness Experiment
So I'm on day 33 of the Oneness Experiment. This project is based on the book the Proof by James Twyman. Have you heard of it? You can participate in the next round when it starts in January. It has been so powerful for me I may just do it again. Between that and the Spiritual Peacemaker class, I'm clear and connected!
The most powerful part of the Proof was days 21-30 where we dealt with the Shadow Self. I don't even know specifically what I changed, but going through the process, I feel like I'm coming out from under a pile of blankets. My confidence is back, my clarity is back, I'm dreaming at night, and able to visualize my future for the first time in months. Meanwhile, back at the ranch, I have new clients coming in as if by magic! Of course it's not magic. It's stepping into the flow of abundance, of course. Getting the cobwebs and garbage out of the corners has made it possible for me to love life, be grateful, and maintain a vibration of joy. I am willing to accept the good that is waiting for me. I am willing to be financially abundant. I am willing to be magnificent.
To your success,
Pam
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