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Saturday, February 5, 2011
Manifesting and Support
Sometimes there are people supporting us that we don’t even know about.
Case in point: Gina.
I don’t see Gina very often. Almost every time we are together it’s at a party or other social event where talking, catching up…DEEP conversations aren’t really possible. Today, I talked to Gina on the phone for nearly 45 minutes.
This is a friend who has been waiting for me to do some things, plan some things, organize some things I’ve been talking about for a while. A while.
She’s number TWO on the “when are we starting the book discussion group?” bandwagon. Crap. Am I ignoring the messages from the Universe? Are there people waiting for me to do what I said I would do? Who else is out there?
Meanwhile, I’m sitting in my house (or traveling around) NOT moving forward on these “really great ideas.”
Here’s what I know about how the Universe “hears” that sort of nonsense. If I say I want something and I take even the tiniest baby step in that direction, then doors open and more opportunities to grow and develop “magically” appear in my life. On the other hand, if I say I want something and I sit in a dark room and hide (not that I’ve been doing that) then the Universe thinks it was just a nice idea and I’m not really serious about it. And the opportunities “magically” disappear.
All it takes is the BABIEST of baby steps to get the flow moving. Just START.
Gina also wants to help with the girl’s seminar. Where is that? Ok, I’ve been working on the music for it. That’s a baby step. I’ve decided on the format (Friday evening, Saturday) and the length (8 hours). I have the outline and…where’s the beef? Content, honey. We need content.
I’ve been noticing incompletions in my life – books unfinished, garage not quite cleaned, files not filed…it all adds up. I’ve finished three books this week (I KNOW!! THREE!!). I’m back in town the week of Valentine’s Day so the garage is on the list. Cleaning it up. Cleaning my LIFE up.
Gina wants to help develop and work the seminar. So let her, already! She’s done enough seminar work and presentations and working with people that I’m sure she has great ideas. And Kathy. And Lil. And Patrice. And Michelle. And Anita. And any number of Wonder Women who all want girls to grow up strong and confident. All of these people can be contributors. I like working with a team. SO GET BUSY!! Set the date for a seminar-writing summit. YES!! That’s what we need. We need to lock ourselves in a room and not leave until the damn thing is finished.
I LOVE IT!!
Take THAT, Universe.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Attached to a Feeling
Attached to a Feeling
On my walk today, I was listening to Carol Reynolds “Building Great Relationships” recordings. I was on the one called “How Do I Get Complete?” I listened happily along for about 50 minutes, reminding myself of things Carol has talked about so many times before. Good reminder, I thought.
Then she said the one thing that kicked my butt.
She was telling a story about attachments. As part of the “clean up process,” attachments can manifest in creating problems for ourselves, unconsciously. She said “maybe you are attached to a feeling that you had as a child, like maybe that guarded, fearful, survival feeling…then what happens is you think, on a sub-conscious level, you need that feeling.”
Holy crap.
That feeling of being fearful, of barely surviving, of being guarded. VERY familiar.
This is a feeling I’ve created in my life for…well…my whole life.
From the time I left home, I can remember this feeling about money in my life, regardless of my income.
When I was in the Navy, I earned $613 a month. I had ONE bill – for my piano. Yet I never had money. Ok, I did have to buy my own food since I was on a weird schedule and couldn’t eat in the chow hall, but that was it. Really? Where did the rest go? I didn’t have a wild lifestyle or buy tons of clothes or travel all over the place. I had a pretty quiet life, actually. So…???
When we moved to Virginia with a tiny baby, I so wanted to stay home with her and be a mommy. Fear had me get a part-time then full-time job. Then I got immersed in work (which I am ever so good at) and that was that. My career was always at the top of my list after that. Survival. I convinced myself I “had to work” in order to get by.
Yet, we did buy a little townhouse during that time. Hmmm.
Through the years, there never was enough money. I’m sure I could go back and find tons of places where the money was wasted, spent foolishly, mis-managed. Meanwhile, I spent hours and hours documenting every dime, creating a filing system, watching the money. To what result?
We did move into a bigger house…then I moved out. Then bought a townhouse on my own. All the time, having the feeling that I “couldn’t afford”…what? Anything!
More work, more work, more work. I worked full-time with the school district and taught 15 students private music lessons.
Work.
Work.
Work.
Then, frustrated with never feeling like there was enough, being away from my family, etc., I moved to Las Vegas to create a new life. The cost of living was lower (at least back then). Oh?
I bought a house at the upper edge of my budget. Really? Then wondered why I “couldn’t afford”….anything.
I married someone with, well, not great money management skills who had just lost his job. Really?
After just a few years we were sinking, sinking, sinking. The marriage ended. The house finally went into foreclosure. And I am going to bankruptcy court on Wednesday.
“That guarded, fearful, survival feeling.”
Now I am planning on expanding my successful music school into a commercial space and feeling…guarded, fearful, and in survival.” I have a very bad case of the “what-ifs.” What if there are hidden costs? What if no one wants to sign up for lessons? What if the great teachers I have quit? What if my partner (my daughter, Christine) changes her mind and doesn’t want to do this anymore? What if I don’t manage the money well and I get stuck? What if? What if? What if????
Meanwhile, I work, work, work, and never feel like I get anywhere.
Familiar? Hmmmm.
Here’s my Upper Limit Problem (The Big Leap) right here. FEAR.
I don’t have a solution as I sit here. I think it’s a pretty big deal to just see this and honestly confront it.
This is a huge “ah-ha” for me today. Completely worth every dime I’ve spent on any book, CD, or seminar I’ve ever done, especially of Carol Reynolds’.
Can you relate? How did you solve it?
Sending love to all,
Pam
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